Dear friends of the Internet,
there is something so indescribably special about coming out of a rough patch and feeling as though you are seeing the world with new eyes. For the past two months, I have not been in the best place mentally. But last weekend, I woke up one day and simply felt….happy. For the first time in a while I was not dreading the day ahead – I was actually excited for it. I had temporarily forgotten what that felt like and let me tell you: it feels magical.
These past few days I have been in an unusual high. I am proud to announce that I have taken up a new hobby – baking – and one could definitely describe me as ‘somewhat addicted’. I tried my hand at olive bread just a couple of days ago and there was something so therapeutic about kneading the dough, watching it ferment and then being able to taste the final product. Though my family was surprised by this sudden surge of energy, they certainly aren’t complaining …They couldn’t even if they wanted to, I am drowning them in baked goods!
Most importantly, I am starting to find joy in the things I put off due to lack of energy. In times like this I have come to learn that establishing stable, daily routines is even more important when you are in a bad mental space. It forces you to get up in the morning – even if you don’t want to – and slowly started to make me look forward to the next day.
…I guess I just wanted to put it down in writing: I am finally starting to feel like myself again. I have come to see that there is a huge difference between feeling “less bad” and actually feeling something like joy and happiness. These past two months have been an incredible weight on my shoulders, one that is now beginning to lift. That weight will probably be back for a visit in the future but I am trying to stay optimistic.
My point is: mental health is never a straight line. Not only have I learnt to accept this but also how to cope with it. Coming out of a bad spot is never easy – it takes time, willingness and oftentimes a little kick in the butt. Everyone deals with it differently, there is no universal handbook for any of us to follow. We have to figure out what works for us individually.
As mentally draining as set-backs are, I argue that there is a positive to them: they force us to find habits and methods that work for us. They make us more equipped to handle the next rough patch that comes our way.